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All music and lyrics written and performed by Depersonalization Syndrome.
Mixed and mastered by Igor Yatsina.
Additional vocals on "The Star" by Julia Nobakova.

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released October 25, 2016

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Track Name: Get Away
Sail away
I cannot see my broken ladders
In my mind
You drop yourself in the cold shadows
I forget myself
To escape this hell
But you still afraid
That I will kill somebody
I will die
Into my mind
But couldn't you
Just
FUCKING GET AWAY?!

Get away, or
You won't see my face tomorrow
I'll escape, or
I will show you my sweet horror

What a fuck
Are you still waiting me to do now
Say "Good luck!"
And turn away to forget me somehow
I am so sick and tired
I told truth when you lied
So many times I tried
To leave you
Shut up and stay
There is no way
Me to obey
Your silly wishes

I've did just one step
But you stayed on my way
I tried to hold on
When you were crying on the floor
When you were holding my hand
I've became enemy, but
not a friend
When you locked the door
I threw you about the wall!
Track Name: Separate Me
Come to me [I won’t]
Let me touch you [No]
Let me see [Please don’t]
I will stay here [Go away]
I want to kiss you [No]
I want to understand [I don’t want to hear anything, I’ve got my life,
DO NOT DISTURBE!]

I come to you, you go away
You come to me, I do not stay
SO WHAT THE FUCK?!
I think about you, you think about me
We can’t live together and separately

I tried to catch you sight
But you’ve hidden your eyes
I tried to clear my mind
But everything is useless

The time we were together we’ve done many mistakes
The time I’ve been alone I’ve done many fakes
Just to see you again, to feel your smell
But every time you say to me “GO TO HELL!!!”

I come to you, you go away
You come to me, I do not stay
SO WHAT THE FUCK?!
I think about you, you think about me
We can’t live together and separately

Now I pray “Let’s begin again!”
I pray you, DON’T TURN AWAY!!!
I just love you!

I come to you, you go away
You come to me, I do not stay
SO WHAT THE FUCK?!
I think about you, you think about me
We can’t live together and separately

SEPARATE ME
From yourself
SEPARATE ME
From yourself
SEPARATE ME
From yourself
Track Name: Something Dead Inside Of Me
It would be a usuall love story
The story I would never be sorry
The story I would never forget
Well, I won't forget it 'till the end

Of time when I'm in mine right mind
The time I searched in hope to find
My only one, my only fate
With whom it would be fucking great

To walk along the twilight alley
Or lay beneath the stars on valley
That time we walked with her at night
I thought that everything allright

But it was not that case
I looked right into her face
This feeling was so hard, so rude
And then I'd hardly understood, that

Something died inside of me
[And there's no way to run]
Something died inside of me
[I cannot fix what I've done]
Something died inside of me
[There is no any word to say]
Something died inside of me
[How did I want to run away]

She looked into my eyes and gave a smile
I felt inside me something wild
She took my hand and tried to kiss
And I have never felt like this

Inside of me I felt like boiling
The voice inside began its howling
She said to me "Are you allright?"
"Of course I am!" Of course I lied!

My face was pale my hands were shaking
My inner evil was awaking
Willing to run, I tried to stand
I hoped she wouldn't understand

Cold sweat streamed down on my face
I damn that moment and that place,
If I was ice, I sure would melt
When we were close and we felt, that

Something's dead inside of me
[And there's no way to run]
Something's dead inside of me
[I cannot fix what I've done]
Something's dead inside of me
[There is no any word to say]
Something's dead inside of me
[How did I want to run away]

That time I wanted to say
That I love you, but on my way
Was standing peas, that could not wait
And made me fart on our date

I'm trying so hard
Not to fart
But I cannot stop this
I'm trying to hide
All this smell
But you've already felt it
I saw in your eyes a tear
This smell was so unkind, it was so strong and clear
I tried to tense my ass to stop
But I've done it again, it was like a trap...

You breathed in my sweet
STENCH!!!
Track Name: The Game
So if you wanna play
Go ahead, and I will do the same
[I know you want it!]
You wanna see my pain, you want
Make me obey, but I won’t!
[Even I deserve it!]
Your love is your prison
For me it’s freedom, there’s no reason
[To put in chains yourself!]
We’ve got the chance to be
Such a bitch like you, such a shit like me

You go through life without shame and confusement
I do just the same, but you’re trying to use me
Enchained in your love, that is not true
Enchained in your lies to me and you
I stretch along [your thoughts and insurance]
I am forlorn [for all that making clearance]
Now is your turn [you try to make influence]
I will torn [your lies and my indifference]

So if you wanna play
Go ahead, and I will do the same
[I know you want it!]
You wanna see my pain, you want
Make me obey, but I won’t!
[Even I deserve it!]
Your love is your prison
For me it’s freedom, there’s no reason
[To put in chains yourself!]
We’ve got the chance to be
Such a bitch like you, such a shit like me

You look at me and I see all your wishes
So I don’t give a damn and take off all my leashes
My love is freedom and I do all I got to do
You don’t want to believe it, you think my love’s not true
I whisper you [just come to me and dress off]
I shout on you [I can’t control my body]
You get amused [and asking me to fuck off]
I’m feeling used [I wanna kill somebody]

You think you won’t fuck with me
And I will come undone
I won’t cry
I will just fuck another one!

So if you wanna play
Go ahead, and I will do the same
[I see you want it!]
You wanna me to concur you
But I don’t know if I really want to
My passion is my plague
And every passion’s my mistake
[I know I must not!]
We’ve got no chance to be
Such a queen like you, such a fool like me…

We’ve got someone to choose
We’ve got someone to loose
We’ve got no one to blame
It’s time to stop the game

It’s time to stop the game
It’s time for me to fade away
[I’m useless for you all!]
You all expected me to fight
I am wrong, you are right!
[But I don’t give the fuck at all!]
You’re happy without me
So what’s the sense to be
[I am the superfluous!]
What is the sense to be
Together you and me?
Track Name: The Star [feat. J.N.]
I can't say
The words much better
Than I've told you yesterday

Lay along
The stripes of letter
Where I begged you to stay

Could you give me just a chance
Leave alone her cold embrace, and
I regret my life before

Take my pulse and all my breath
Crash my bones and cut my face
I don't want you any more, but

Your star falls into me
You're so far, but you make me bleed
For you...

Velvet dreams
Forgotten passion
My cold fire and your hot stream

Make believe
That my desire
Won't die in just a dream

All the words I've said that time
Were the lies that made you cry
I am sorry, it's my fault

I just thought
It would be better
For us both, but I was wrong [strong], so

Your star will fall into me
You're so far, but you make me bleed
For you...
Track Name: What Have You Done
Stop, there's no place to run
So many times you were astray
There's no place to stay

You can't hide from yourself
Don't turn your life to hell
There's so much things to cheer
Forget your goddamn fear

or close your eyes and JUMP!

You see the world in a different way
And the sunshine that you breathe in
Fires you up, and every ray
Will show you what you're turning in

When your anger gets out your eyes
And you can't control it
You shatter all
You are about to fall

All the things that you have known
Now are about to drawn
You've got all you need
But you can not stop this shit

You see the world in a different way
And the sunshine that you breathe in
Fires you up, and every ray
Will show you what you're turning in

STOP IT!
AGAIN
YOU'RE TRYING TO ESCAPE!
FADE OUT THE PAIN,
BREAKING THIS AWFUL SHAPE!

You've lost yourself
You've lost everything
And the tears that are flowing on the scars
Gives away all the memory
Shouting "WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!"
Track Name: Lost
Stretched nerves insane
And no one to complain
My mind is out of me
And all I can is heal
You do not feel me now
Because I’m fucking gone
Away from myself
I’m gone

Save me from this shit
I can’t cope with it by myself

And now I need to lie
To feel myself alive
And being fucking blind
It’s hard for me to FIND THE WAY TO SAY THAT I AM WEEK FOR
Breaking the wall
Say “Goodbye” and get out from this all!

Getting tired to think
I just begin to drink
And now I cannot sleep
My empty soul can’t weep
ANY MORE
I FEEL LIKE A WHORE
I’m not the one you knew
You need much, I’ve got few… I’ve got few… FOR YOU!

And now I need to lie
To feel myself alive
And being fucking blind
It’s hard for me to FIND THE WAY TO SAY THAT I AM WEEK FOR
Breaking the wall
Find the way to get out from this all!